That moment, when you know things are going well to you and most of your friends, and you know that they are sincerely happy with their situation, and it feels like the world and the life rotate to the right way, and you feel relief and calm and…present in a lonely way.
That moment, when you find the silence among the crowded cheerful surrounding. Just like when you cover your ears in the water at the pool on Sunday family splash event.
Priceless.
I used to think that life is like circling around. We pass the same route again and again but we are getting better each time. We fall on our first time, we knew where was the hole on our second, we knew where to slow down and jump on our third, we increase our speed on our fourth, and so on.
I thought I’m gonna excell this life one day. That I’ll be able to walk with my eyes closed and it won’t be a circling anymore but maybe some different or new routes. But I guess what my friend said was right. “We will never become expert in life. We are just become more experienced on how to control ourselves.”
It is easy to put so much control in life. To judge life based on the right or the wrong. However, what is right and what is wrong don’t really relate to what we truly feel.
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