But ditch it when you are already gaining the strength that you need to get back up. Go travel instead. Explore new things, try new food, learn new culture, meet new people, and talk to strangers.

Be open with vulnerability, and yes, be alone. It will feel lonely for sure, to be alone somewhere else while aching, and you will need that. That loneliness will make you squirm and your whole body will beg you to find someone, or even just something, to distract you and make you feel less alone. Your body and mind will plead you to do something.

And that's exactly why you won't.

You will just sit calmly with yourself, manage your breath, and let whatever your mind screams at you or your heart tries to make you feel, you will just sit still there, until they are tired and learn how to behave with you.

And that's how you tame your own beast and train it how to sit calmly with you.

That's how you train your mind and heart, and come back stronger than before. To own your mistakes, your sadness, your pain, and let them shape you into a much better person.

That's how you really heal; to acknowledge what you feel, to accept the validity of your emotions, to know that you are in control of whatever you think or feel and to really act on changing your circumstance.

And finally, to put an expire date on your past experiences.

• Sky, March 2018

#thoughts #alone #stronger #life

The only way you could feel the wind is by letting it comes to you and leaves you when it needs to. By letting it go and never ask the wind to stay.

And sometimes, the wind is lucky when there are some, who decide to follow and go to where it blows.

#wind #freedom #alone

My bad?

I always try to ignore it and fool myself.

My reason? People like you, who made me want to believe that I’m not ...

Alone.

#love #life #alone

You can’t even differ life and death, let alone to count your breath. You don’t know whether it was important or it was simply boredom, you just remember everything and every little details plays in your head. Every-little-details. Play-stop-rewind.

I know how it feels.

To slowly kill your soul by abandoning what your heart needs to say and ignoring what your mind needs to feel. To always know what to do but never knew what to feel. Feel helpless, no matter how strong your will to fight and get back up, was. Feel clueless, you just forget who you were before all these?

You have no idea of what you are looking anymore. You know everything and forget all the things all together. You fight with your own desires and memories, to define yourself.

I know how it feels.

To smile and be strong to ease everyone’s heart, but you. To seem hopeful and positively welcoming changes in front of everyone, but your own shadow. Feel tired of life and could only sighing with few options that none was actually your choice. Feel enough of lying to yourself, or wait- what was it called? Positive thinking?

You can’t even say it out loud, what you really feel and what really bother you. You can’t even cry out loud tho you know how much you need it, and how often you shed your tears when no one is around.
You just love them so much that you choose to hold the weight of the world for everyone, but you.

I know how it feels and you are not alone. You are never alone and it is okay to feel that way for a while.

#feel #life #alone #honesty