That it left only one question; why did we even listen to the song in the beginning?

We were there because we were lonely. We were dying to find just one soul to talk and share everything honestly with. One soul that could understand, don't judge, and we feel at ease to be with, no matter how far the distance was, in real.

One soul to whom we could rest a little part of ourselves to. One that could make the complicated world makes sense a little bit, and will stay even when there is nothing left to be shared anymore. One that we share the love with, without the needs to define it.

But then, after we have found each other, all we did was just pushing each other away, trying to make ourselves believe that we are better without each other. We stubbornly believe that we could only do our own way, that we don't want what we have.

We hold on tightly to our fears, refuse to let go or change, and would rather to lose each other than to lose our comfort zone.

We forget about that night, when we were lonely and dying just to find one soul, and that one soul actually responded and stayed.

How complicated we, human, are. Or maybe, it's just love doesn't conquer all.

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What I dislike the most of life, probably are unproductivity, uncertainty, and indecisiveness. Combine them with fears and you'll have zero growth.

Now, I might dislike them all, but I hate zero growth the most.

What I like the most from you, probably are your witty mind, curiosity, and your ability to understand me. Yet, combine you with my love of adventures, flexibility, and deep connection, we are at zero growth.

Now, I do like you, but I love myself the most.

What I like the most from a cup of coffee, probably the smell and the bitter taste. Combine it with a cozy space and great music, you'll get the best time of your life. Yet, what I love from drinking it, was because I don't have to talk or to listen while I sip on it.

I love my solitude the most.

The paths that we take are very different, my friend. Let's just let you sip your latte and I sip my lemonade coffee. Sometimes, though we both love coffee, it is better not to share to enjoy it.

The same goes with life.

Bitter sweet sayonara. Bali, June 2021.

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“If love is only a matter of the right person, at the right time and the right place, then at this very moment, we have love. We are love.

But know that love is love. It doesn't equal to anything else. It's momentarily. And maybe, that's the beauty of it.”

Momentarily. Jakarta, June 2021

“At the end of the day, will you choose love or us?”

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“You remember how you always said you want people to just forget you while I always said I want them to remember me? I think I understand you more now and am feeling the same way as you with time.”

“Oh how so? Why do you feel that way?”

“I don't know. Maybe I was trying to be the person who remembers too and now I want to change it? Why did you always feel that way?”

“Maybe because I don't feel memories about me are significant.”

“I dont know. I guess I just want to forget some things.”

“Do you remember, I once said when we were a bit arguing back then; “I hope you will never understand what I feel and will never have to.””

“And?”

“Lol. No and. I really wish you wouldn't feel the way I did on sadness or loneliness. I want you to be happy.”

“I want you to be happy, too.”

“You know I always try to.”

“I do too, then.”

If anyone should remember anything about me, I wish it was a memory that made them remember of how good they are to me. Bali, June 2021

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“There are few certain things in my life, but I do leave a very spacious room for improvisation and last minute plot twists.

I love to act fool, to let people wonder, think differently, or even absruptly, about me. And trust me, I have no desire to correct them all. Lol.

People who have their own world and distant mind from the rest, always fascinate me. Anything, but boredom.

And I've learnt a lot about the power of letting the universe to decide. This life is mine as much as it's not.”

“Just because you love me, doesn't mean I feel loved.”

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Some important things in our lives are meant to be done alone. And for these important things, there will never be the right time. The right time is always now.

Sometimes the cure to our addiction is the real addictive toxic.

My time is now. You and the world can wait, or leave.

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Sometimes, one of them is the perfect sense.

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Could never be too strong, yet never really fade ever. Just slightly. Just a little. But it scatters everywhere, in me.

Everything that is different about you.

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I love how we hide from each other sometimes, just to keep the pace between us for not being too fast, and still at the right time to show how much we care.

I love how you make yourself not always be there for me, and still I know you are. I know you always put yourself a little bit further back from me, just to keep me safe and to let me have my space.

I love how you only pat my back and said, “Well done.” when no one was around. Or when you can differ whether I was being stubborn, or I was just trying to convince myself.

I love how my complicatedness feels so normal when I'm around you. Domou Arigatou.

“You wouldn't be yourself if you weren't complicated :). You can be as complicated as you want around me and it wouldn't bother me one bit.”

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