For all of the feelings I refuse to deny, and all of the memories I refuse to forget.
“I never feel lonely, but I have felt of being defeated. When there is nothing that I could do to make things better or nothing I could change, I feel defeated.
By acknowledging that I feel defeated, I gave credit to my fights. It shows that I actually have chosen to fight and giving my best to find a solution.
If you feel lonely because no one could really understand you, the way you see things, and the way you choose to live, you actually know that you are on the right way. You are carving your own path of life.
Loneliness is the very first thing that great people, leaders, artists, and great thinkers have to deal with. No one could see what they saw, that's why they are always few steps ahead.
Yet, it is never about being ahead. It is always only about being you and how to see it clearly. Your self. Your life. Your rules.
“I don't really see anyone's life as better, worse, happier, sadder, messier, or whatever, and simply see them all as different one to another.
I simply see anyone who are still alive till this time, as one that is still trying to be happy and be alive with his/her own ways for his/her own reasons. Otherwise, he/she won't be here right now lol.
Neither do I try to compare my life with anyone's. I'm just feeling grateful with what I have, how far that I've walked this life, and hopeful for what I will become.
To really focus on how best I could live and be, without the needs to compare, other than with the life that I had yesterday.”
Make time to design your life.
Maybe it is true that when we are looking, somehow the universe will give the way to the answers.
These past few years, we've met and talked with random strangers, mostly accidentally, and somehow each of them opened the door for us to new things and just like connecting dots, leading us to see life much differently.
Affirmation does work. Goal map or life map does work, too. You could really ask something from the universe.
It doesn't come to you like magic instantly, well..sometimes it is in special case, but let's just take the majority that it comes in progress.
Life can be confusing sometimes, and it's okay.
People can be judgemental and demanding many times, and it's okay.
Things can be messy most of the times, and it's okay.
Feelings can be tricky each time, and it's okay.
You'll always find a reason to smile or to cry, in any circumstance that you are facing. And there will always be a good thing to learn from each of them.
Just make sure you have a good reason to choose what to feel. To smile or to cry.
“From now on, I'll just be the girl I was, again. The girl who enjoy every beat of her heartbeats, who gives zero fuck to what others think of her life, who lives to the fullest, embraces changes and heading to the future in full speed.
The girl who chooses to be happy, to see the world, to feel at home anywhere, and lives in a world with no stranger that she build for herself.
The girl that always says proudly, 'I chose my life. I didn't settle for it.' :)”
“I love taking photo more.”
“Why?”
“A video is trying to make and keep a moment alive, to keep the time flows. Photo is on the opposite, it tries to stop the time. To steal the moment from the eternity. To lock everything in a moment of time.”
“Hm..”
“That's also why I love printed photos more, actually.”
“Because it fades with time?”
“Indeed :). Everything is beautiful with time, and matters only when there is the span of time.”
Loving you is so hard. It is.
We are so different in almost every possible ways.
To every idea and knowledge that you get, is another adapting process to me.
To each circumstance that you face,