And you were right; all the things that you mentioned, were. But then I have no right answers to your questions.

Can't a situation change? Shouldn't people change? Doesn't time come and go? Isn't life keeps on living?

Should an opinion could never be wrong, and feelings could never be predicted, then what's the point of reasoning for something we know we can't agree with?”

Let it be left hanging on read. Oct, 2021.

#thoughts #love #life #honesty

That it left only one question; why did we even listen to the song in the beginning?

We were there because we were lonely. We were dying to find just one soul to talk and share everything honestly with. One soul that could understand, don't judge, and we feel at ease to be with, no matter how far the distance was, in real.

One soul to whom we could rest a little part of ourselves to. One that could make the complicated world makes sense a little bit, and will stay even when there is nothing left to be shared anymore. One that we share the love with, without the needs to define it.

But then, after we have found each other, all we did was just pushing each other away, trying to make ourselves believe that we are better without each other. We stubbornly believe that we could only do our own way, that we don't want what we have.

We hold on tightly to our fears, refuse to let go or change, and would rather to lose each other than to lose our comfort zone.

We forget about that night, when we were lonely and dying just to find one soul, and that one soul actually responded and stayed.

How complicated we, human, are. Or maybe, it's just love doesn't conquer all.

#life #honesty #thoughts #strangers #soulmates #love #lonely

“And please, don't let the past take the best out of you. Most people do that. They gave everything they have best at the first time and failed.

Then what they learnt from it were about; how to not be disappointed when things fail, how to not feel too much, how to expect less, how to aim lower, and back off bit by bit, instead of learning how to find the right way, the right person, the right reason, and the right timing.

They shrinked themselves bit by bit on each fail attempt, try less, trust less, gave less and less effort, open up less and less.

How can you expect a better outcome by trying less, trusting less, giving less and being less?

They let the people and the things from their past that didn't deserve their best, got them. And they gave the people and the things at the present that deserve to get their best, the least. How ironic is that?

I learnt through life that the more I fail, the harder I'll try. The more I get hurt, the harder I will love. And that's how I get better at everything and always able to give a better version of me to the present.

And that's how you get the best of me now, instead of some losers from my past.”

#life #honesty #love

“If, along with loving someone makes you feel less enough about yourself, you know you should let that love go.

If, along with loving someone, you have to give up even the smallest part of yourself away, you know you should let that love go.

Cause one day you will hate that person and curse that love, for ruining some part of your life, and for the better person that you think you would have become, should that person and that love never came into your life.”

A bottle of love. Bali, May 2021

“Because you have to love yourself first before you could really love someone else, and loving yourself also means to take responsibility of your own mess.”

#life #love #honesty

“If love is only a matter of the right person, at the right time and the right place, then at this very moment, we have love. We are love.

But know that love is love. It doesn't equal to anything else. It's momentarily. And maybe, that's the beauty of it.”

Momentarily. Jakarta, June 2021

“At the end of the day, will you choose love or us?”

#life #love #honesty #conversation #strangers #soulmates #memories

“We often find ourselves in between choices; to fight for the love we deserve or to surrender for the love we have for others. And society often framed love only as what we sacrificed for others. They called a love that we show to ourselves as selfish acts, while the truth is, both of them are love, just different kind of loves.

Love might feels comfortable and easy, but it is never something comfortable and easy. Love takes time. Love needs efforts. Love asks for understanding, acceptance, and honesty. Love is a hard work. And love is not only about what you feel towards others. Love is also what you allow yourself to feel about you.

And the next time you find that situation again, know that each of your choices is love.”

Self love is never selfish.

#love #self-love #life #honesty

Love doesn't fade. People just gave up.”

#love

#love

Sometimes, one of them is the perfect sense.

#love #soulmates

All these years, I thought he hated me. I thought I did something that hurt him.

Until few days ago he said, 'Did it never cross your mind that maybe that's the way I told you that I didn't wanna say goodbye to you?'

'That maybe, instead of hating you, I was actually loving you?'”

#love