I once wished that some things will stay the same. That time will go slow and moments will not be forgotten.
But I'm thankful now that things are always changing. That the sky will always have different colors, or else I won't be able to witness such a beautiful sunset.
I'm grateful that life happens.
Always strive to achieve more and more. More experiences, more skills, more knowledge, more deeper understanding of life, more people to share the love of life with, more life mementos.
More of everything that won't make you greedy, won't make you spoil, won't make you have less when you share them, and won't make you less happy when comes the time for you to let go of them
A wide, limitless, and endless blue sky that reminds me of you.
I will never know where will it be ended, never know where will it take me to.
Yet never once I hesitate to just jump and floating with you in this universe.
I wonder, will you remember me when you see a blue sky, one day.. long after I'm gone.
I remember one of my penpals wrote me on one of her letters back then, “We, Europeans, are the master of celebrating sadness. We dig deep into it, appreciate the beauty in it, and celebrate it eloquently.”
I couldn't help thinking of those sentences when I saw the burlesque and cabaret shows. The performers smiled all the time, being energetic and all, but actually most of the songs that they performed, ... were sad songs.
“Some people post things to create an awareness, a dialogue, or an engagement, especially in the social media.
I don't think mine was.
If there is any dialogue that ever be created from my post, it will be a dialogue between the reader and her/himself. A private dialogue.
“You don't need to wait until people regret that they've wasted you, to know that you are worthy.
Don't need to wait until people agree with your opinion, to know that you know what's best for you.
Don't need to be acknowledged and remembered by people, to know that you are irreplaceable.
Don't need others' approval to stay or leave. To be happy or to be sad. To fight or to surrender. To love or to forget.
Don't need others to understand your reasons, to do what you need to do to survive your life.
Don't need to wait until the others feel happy, to pursue your very own happiness.
Many times, you just have to ignore everything and forget the world. Just do your things best, be your best, live your live best, and the rest will follow.”
“The universe always knows its time best; when to fall everything into its' place.”
“And then they will ask me, 'What's the fun of seeing sunset or to stroll along the beaches? Once, it might be fun. Second, third, a sunset is just a sunset, a beach is just a beach.'”
“Lol. And? What did you say?”
“Some feelings need to be let out and some words need to be said, though many times, they don't need to be told to the specific person.
Some things that I will say might hurt them, or will make people who are close with me feel worry about me. And that will become another burden.
“The thing is, I'm not raised the way you are. You grew up with the understanding that some part of your life have been decided and you carry that destiny with you as part of your existence.
While me, I am raised with a belief that I can change everything as long as I want to and wanna try hard. To stand up and step up for myself, for what is right. To always challenge myself and even my own beliefs.
None of them is right or wrong, we just raised and build differently. You have the depth of the sea with you, and I have the lightness of the wind with me.”
“I think what makes someone good at something is not merely skills. It is more about how they see things and life. The values that make them attracted and easily applied into what they do.
Like, some people specified on details and some other do best at big picturing. Some do good at one thing and some at many.
And those things that we do everyday are what shaped our mind into who we are now. So it is indeed a circle of life and habbit.
Either we make it as a work, or a passion, or a calling, it is up to us, cause the level of satisfaction that we gain is very personal.”