Ever Since

“I gotta be honest.. I'm excited that you will come here, but I'm terrified, too.

I don't want you to be disappointed. But don't want you to be overly excited, too.

I don't wanna lose you. But I can't have you stay, too.

And I'm terrified of how all of these things that none has even happened, had ruled my mind and messed my heart ever since..”